"kerosene" lyrics

If I could smile a thousand smiles
Fake I'm good for a while
I would
But I don't think that I should
'Cause then you'd never know
What goes on in my mind
I guess
I'll just stay misunderstood

But it can get lonely sometimes
I wish that you'd hold me most nights
But it can get lonely sometimes
I wish that you'd hold me most nights

Kerosene
I've been burning at both ends to be here
Kerosene, yeah
I've been burning at both ends in secret

All of my friends are sad lately
And my dad saiad it's
Evidence of the prevalence of pathology
So I took his car out south, and ended up crashing it
Hoping he would see an ambulance as an analogy
Close your eyes
You're polarized
And chronically online
I spend all my life drinking a white light from a screen
Half the time I'm half-alive
My brain is barely mine
Probably should've never fell in love
With this lack of self-esteem

Kerosene
I've been burning at both ends to be here
Kerosene (Kerosene)
I've been burning at both ends in secret

If I could smile a thousand smiles
Fake I'm good for a while
I would
But I don't think that I should
'Cause then you'd never know
What goes on in my mind
I guess
I'll just stay misunderstood

But it can get lonely sometimes
I wish that you'd hold me most nights
But it can get lonely sometimes
I wish that you'd hold me most nights