"Exit Pt. VI (The Guilt In The Rierview)" lyrics

The bitter taste of swallowed pride
Feelings of fear that I would hide
The truth is orange and red tonight
I wish I was the one who died

I'm scared of tomorrow
So I'll portray all of our yesterdays
I'll paint the picture my way
Impressionism of what you say
Once power, now guilt
This trip isn't fun
And I'm truly ashamed to be their son

The bitter taste of swallowed pride
Feelings of fear that I would hide
It isn't yours but isn't mine
I wish I was the one who died

Cold calls come from in the house
I want to answer, but there's no plea deal to be found
Banging on the gavel for attention
Begging to unravel all the tension
Breaking on the gravel for a second
And I cannot drive with these tears in my eyes
You proved me wrong for being on your side

I know you killed Ja...