"Nothing Really Changes" lyrics

I made you up in my head, and I know it
I've taken a feeling I caught one night and blown it up
Got a good man here in my bed, it just goes to show it
Never really changes

I write "Go outside every night" on the morning's checklist
There's plaster dust from the wall blowing up the fuse
It takes all of my might these days not to hate my edges
My mother's still buying books on how to hate hers, too
Nothing really changes
When there's something you've got to lose
Nothing really changes

You get rich for a year, you fall in love
You leave him in March, then the tax bill comes
It really makes you wish it hadn't come all at once
But it always does

They fixed up the bench I stood on yelling your name
Cut right through to the bone when the plank gave way
I sit there playing songs you said I hated
Nothing really changes
I imagine what you would say

Only him and I know my greatest secret
I'd get back in the car if the drink or the light was right
All the years that pass don't chip at the memories
Just the lessons they gave me
Nothing really changes
When you're doing it out of spite
Nothing really changes
Or it's looking that way tonight

You get rich for a year, you fall in love
You leave him in March, then the tax bill comes
It really makes you wish it hadn't come all at once
But it always does

You get rich for a year, you fall in love
You break his heart, then the tax bill comes
Really makes you wish it hadn't come all at once
But it always does