"Self Sabotage" lyrics

I wish my head had a trap door
For when I need escaping
Can't live with myself anymore
Feels like I'm suffocating

Tight spaces, breathing in exhaust
Spiraling in negative thoughts
Hostage duck taped in the garage
A master of self sabotage

I don't I don't know how to let somebody know
I try to scream but fear has got me by the throat

And I was talking to a friend
About my situation
He's been exactly where I've been
Familiar isolation

A basket case for days on end
A prison of comparisons
Hostage duck taped in the garage
A master of self sabotage

I don't, I don't know how to let somebody know
I try to scream but fear has got me by the throat

Gaslit by my mirror
Makes me wish that I was someone else
I know I can't love her
Until I decide to love myself

I don't I don't know how to let somebody know
I try to scream but fear has got me by the throat

And so the plot thickens again
I'm both villain and victim
Drunk on lonely entitlement
Wanting someone to listen

I'm screaming from the inside-out
Hover above then come back down
I'm not some narcissistic god
Abandon this self sabotage
Abandon this self sabotage
Abandon this self sabotage
Abandon this self sabotage
Abandon this self sabotage