"Vanish" lyrics

Vanish in the world around me
Leaving ash and bone
This crown of thorns that shows no mercy
But it's my own
I grace these walls with all my failures
What have I become?

I think it's time for my forgiveness
Lick these wounds to heal
A loveless crime with no conviction
Left behind the wheel
I know its time, lay down, surrender
Someone take control

'Cause I'm afraid to love
'Cause I'm afraid I'll leave
I'm living with these lies
That only I believe
And I don't want to walk
And I don't want to run
'Cause I'm afraid of falling
In front of everyone

Hold me down and hurt my feelings
I won't do the same
Locked away my heart unwilling
I've taken all the blame
The darkest hour always finds me
The story ends the same

'Cause I'm afraid to win
'Cause I don't wanna lose
'Cause I'm afraid of falling
Under your review
And I'm afraid to live
But I'm too tired to try
I fall behind these shadows
And killed off all the light

This never ending longing feeling
Waiting to be loved
I'm still believing in forever
But it never comes

And I don't wanna walk
Don't want to have to run
'Cause I'm afraid of falling (I keep falling)
In front of everyone