"Honest Conversation" lyrics

It's been a while since we talked
I walked and walked, and I got lost
And once again, I ended up back here
You say to come just as I am
But do you mean those things You've said?
I've got so many questions and so much fear

Do You even notice me?
As my brain's on fire and I'm losing sleep?
You say You're here
But God, that's hard to believe

Can I just be real for a minute?
The trust in You gets lost in my feelings
This war inside is flesh and spirit
And it feels like flesh is gonna win it
But You're the one I put my faith in
The proof is that I'm still here praying
I know You care what my heart's really saying
So God, let's have an honest conversation

I'm laying all of my cards down
Nothing left to hide, not now
What's the point if I can't tell the truth?
You say You're here inside my heart
Then why, God, do You feel so far
When all I want is to feel so close to You?

Can I just be real for a minute?
The trust in You gets lost in my feelings
The war inside is flesh and spirit
And it feels like flesh is gonna win it
But You're the one I put my faith in
The proof is that I'm still here praying
I know You care what my heart's really saying
So God, let's have an honest conversation

An honest conversation

If You love me
Then why do I hate myself?
If You want me
Then why do I want to be someone else?
If You know me
Then why do I feel so alone?
If there's answers
Then God, won't You tell me so?

Can I just be real for a minute?
The trust in You gets lost in my feelings
This war inside is flesh and spirit
And it feels like flesh is gonna win it
But You're the one I put my faith in
The proof is that I'm still here praying
I know You care what my heart's really saying
So God, let's have an honest conversation

An honest conversation