"birthday card//" lyrics

Red ink does the eulogy
Where is your God?
It's only the internet
Jokes nobody knows
Not lazy, you're depressed
Sir, yes sir
Face down on the park bench
Could you turn the lights off?
Next life, we will make a truce
Walking the plank
Kissing the concrete
My long-lost love
Black cats in the hallway
That's never good luck
Outside where the kids play
Legos for guns

Crying through a good day, biting on the bullet
Jealous of the casualties, brave and so blue
Maybe overstayed it, even then, I paid rent
I love you forever, though I'm suicidal

Reading old birthday cards
But you show up for yourself
No more suit and tie
Death before designer
Yeah, gonna save the weak
Don't be a hero, save yourself
'Cause when heaven is free
Death before designer

I'm a murder that doesn't lie
Pleading the fifth
Honesty is how I take a life
A little ego
As I look back at my life
I shouldn't complain
Contracts that were never right
There's no "I" in team
It's not love, it's a trauma bond
But she loves the ring
For every poem is another bomb
Under your house
To have a chance of small percent
I have no choice but to make a hit

Crying through a good day, biting on the bullet
Jealous of the casualties, brave and so blue
Maybe overstayed it, even then, I paid rent
I love you forever, though I'm suicidal

Reading old birthday cards
But you show up for yourself
No more suit and tie
Death before designer
Yeah, gonna save the weak
Don't be a hero, save yourself
'Cause when heaven is free
Death before designer

Save yourself
I'm waiting on another week
I'm standing on an ancient stone
I'm waiting for a long-lost dream
Don't be a hero, save yourself
Save yourself
I'm writing in the upside down
I'm in it for the aesthetics
I'll be sure to get you roses now