"Not My Fault" lyrics

Can't you see this is your desire?
Lay down on me all that you require
Are you free, or are you still tied up?
Inside your dreams, can you lit the fire?
Or will you bleed?

My first OBE, I was trippin', I thought I was losin' my body
Exit the game, thought I was kicked out the lobby
I was a mess, face on the floor like the last of a zombie
Ominous thoughts in my head when I looked at the drop, almost hopped it
Beat on my thoughts, too many demons I leave in a box
See what I lost, five, five, five weeks I been off
See the depression, I can't compete, they can see that I'm gone
It seem that I, uh, it seem that I, uh
It seem that I really be losin' my mind
First thing I say, "Mama Thula, it's fine"
Face in the mirror, a face full of fear
In the face of the spirit, think I'm too misaligned
Move out the way when the shit gettin' rough
Even though this all part of the design
Fallin' in deep when I'm stuck in the mud
Pay for my sins, but I'm late for the fine
Baby, you know I'm my worst enemy
Stand in my way almost every time
Inflate my ego, I'm poppin' myself
Hand on my throat, cut off my own supply
You said I might never [?]
[?] suffocatin' the vibe
She tellin' me she be hatin' my guts
Well, baby, ain't no one hate me more than I
Baby, ain't no one hate me more than I

It's time to shine
I know that's all right
It's time to shine
I know that's all right
It's time to shine
I know that's all right
It's time to shine
I know that's all right

Can't you see this is your desire?
Lay down on me all that you require
Are you free or are you still tied up?
Inside your dreams, can you lit the fire?
Or will you bleed?

Baby, I know I'm toxic, I ain't never made no progress
Yellin' at me all day, you my favorite project
You tryna match my hate, baby, quit talkin' nonsense
I can't feel my face, I'm 'bout to jump off the roof

My life a motion picture, look at this poor thing
They lovin' a pity party, let's fill up the whole sea
I'm seein' a ocean fill up, waitin' to see me scream
They waitin' to see me hiccup, my trauma on TV screens
Are you not entertained? I should be a Oscar winner
Sorry I'm so unpolished, my father was not the richest
Mama came out the village, never the optimist
Type of shit that she saw leave all of you in astonishment
Now, round of applause
Hear the whispers and conversation
Was raised as a rotten seed, it's no wonder I bombed the ratings
Standin' ovation, they couldn't stand me on they A-list
Safe haven was vacant, most hated, degraded
I'm pavin' a way while they try and shove me on waitlists
I'm knowin' the game, they play masqueraded as entertainment
Shrug on my shoulders, stayin' unfazed
I know if I ever break, they gon' try and paint me as crazy, I know

I'm seein' the snakes in the fog, movin' with heinous thoughts
Shame that my trachea see them baring they fangs when I talk
Baby, I know what they want
Baby, I know what they want
Can't help but think of the worst
Maybe they do wanna help or maybe they dyin' of thirst
Cynical little old me told to put family first
Sadly, my family failed me, guess it's a family curse
Baby, I know what they want
Ask how I feel now I'm famous, baby, I'm still fucked up
And baby, I'm still feelin' numb
Baby, I know what they want