"Ash, Cinder, Smoke" lyrics

I ride through crystalline skies, blind
Driven by purpose to the apex

Flung toward the sun
Into the light
I break down and pray
With you in ash
Cinder and smoke
I forget your face

I fear the nearer that I approach
I can't give you to the wind

To lay you to rest (Return to dust)
I have to let go
Five years have gone (Won't toss the urn)
Still hoping you'll return
Suddenly with mind lain open
You're offering me your hand
But I know it is just an illusion
At least until I reach my end

And in my sorrow, this longing still remains
Memories, not my own, haunt my dreams
Now a void where once there was so much more
Here your vessel and my guilt are now laid to rest