"WHOLE LIFE" lyrics

You broke me in pieces and
You played me the victim, been
So long since I had you
So long inside this loop
No way in, no way out, what am I living?
Wanna lay in the now but I can't when I've

Spent my whole life
Thinking 'bout how it could have been
Spent my whole life
Tryna find what the feeling is
Spent all this time
Without it
Spent my whole life
Thinking 'bout how it could have been
Just thinking 'bout how it could have been
Thinking 'bout how it could have been

I'm missing this warmth I knew
No memory just visions of you
So long the days we spent
So long my mind's been here
Every year, every hour, what am I living?
Wanna lay in the now but I can't when I've

Spent my whole life
Thinking 'bout how it could have been
Spent my whole life
Tryna find what the feeling is
Spent all this time without it
Spent my whole life
Thinking 'bout how it could have been
Just thinking 'bout how it could have been

Yeah, I was only nine, it was summertime
Feeling so alive but I couldn't see that left hook coming
Took me by surprise, Daddy called me crying
That shit freaked me out, that shit really made my heart start jumping
Mama sat me down, head was getting loud
Getting loud, man I couldn't hear a word she's talking
I was on fire on the inside
Tryna find us, 'boutta spend my whole life without it
Without it
Without it
Without it
Without it (My whole life)

Thinking 'bout how it could have been
Just thinking 'bout how it could have been
Thinking 'bout how it could have been
Yeah, thinking 'bout how it could have been
My whole life, thinking 'bout how it could have been
My whole life, thinking 'bout how it could have been