"Lead Existence" lyrics

I know I
Live a life that won't change
For some time
I've felt ill, quite strange
I haven't cried freedom
I don't prize myself for my ill health
That starts to loom

An empty room
Is now my doom

My past was gone
Well I know this was not what I wanted
My head was clear not in fear of habit
And guilt never took control
Well I lost a soul to my blues
A long time ago

A long time ago