"Avoidance" lyrics

The bodies, the bones, the seeds that I've sown
All of the moments I regret
The bottle of hurt, the pain I deserve
It's they bury me or I bury them
Bad, bad nights in my failed dreams
I like to keep 'em where I can't see
Maybe the things I'm avoiding don't really wanna destroy me
Maybe they're waiting for me

They say face your fears
But every time I do I cry tears
Every time I show up I show love
That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug
Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug
It's all smoke and mirrors
Yeah, I'm collecting scars like souvenirs
And every time I show up, I show love
That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug
Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug

My anger, my jeans that ripped at the seams
All of my long-lost high school friends
One step at a time, that's how I get by
Yeah, I'm running marathons in my head
Maybe the things I'm avoiding don't really want to destroy me
Maybe they're crying for me, crying for them
I keep running and running
I don't know who I'm becoming
I want to stop, but I don't know when

They say face your fears
But every time I do I cry tears
And every time I show up I show love
That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug
Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug
It's all smoke and mirrors
Yeah, I'm collecting scars like souvenirs
Every time I show up, I show love
That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug
Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug

Yeah, I'm neglecting therapy
I think I know what's best for me
'Cause if I open up the wound, I know I won't stop bleeding
Smiling through the roller-coaster
Highs and lows, I know I'm breathing

They say face your fears
But every time I do I cry tears
Every time I show up I show love
That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug
Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug
It's all smoke and mirrors
Yeah, I'm collecting scars like souvenirs
Every time I show up, I show love
That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug
Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug

Cry
At least not tonight
I try not to cry
At least not tonight
I try not to cry
At least not tonight
I try not to cry
At least not tonight
I try not to cry