"Circus" lyrics

No, this wasn't what I pictured
When I dreamed of driving across the desert
You and me, and Bubba
Playing Red Hot Chilli Peppers

No, this wasn't what I pictured
When I went and joined the circus
And now my best friend's in some rehab
And I'm touring basements and churches

And I swore I thought I could manifest my happiness, baby
And I swore I thought I would be somewhere different

But the big wheel keeps on turning around
I'm still painting on a smile, tryna hide my frown
And when the lights come up, I'm still the same sad fuck
Guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was
I guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was
Yeah

No, this ain't what I pictured
My soul's busted, I'll admit it
I keep checking off my boxes
But then, now nothing seems to fix it

And I swore I thought I could manifest my happiness, baby
And I swore I thought I'd be somewhere different

But the big wheel keeps on turning around
I'm still painting on a smile, tryna hide my frown
When the lights come up, I'm still the same sad fuck
Guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was
I guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was
Hey

No, this ain't what I pictured
No, this ain't what I pictured
When I went and joined the circus
I thought I would find my purpose
But I'm still hungry, and I'm still angry
And I'm just laughing at myself

'Cause the big wheel keeps on turning around
I'm still painting on a smile, tryna hide my frown
And when the lights come up, I'm still the same sad fuck
Guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was
I guess the circus wasn't what I thought it was