"Flatline Afternoon" lyrics

0, 1, 2
Three days from a flatline afternoon
What I'd do
Go through
To taste a second of the life that I once knew

When I was young
And all I'd want
Was to set the world on fire
With the sparks coming off my eyes
But it's hard to love
It's hard to trust
With that sinking in your gut
And a beating heart that's like a set of cuffs

I'd give it all to turn back time
To when this body felt like mine
And I wouldn't fear that staying here
Could break the heart of someone dear
But now it's always on my mind

3, 2, 1
Just like that and this can't be undone
Have your fun
Chase the rush
As you're rusting by the month
There's no ignoring what's to come

All of the power I took back falls away
When my hands go numb and my vision fades
There's a thread from my head to the floor by my bed
That never goes away when you're sick until you pass away

I'd give it all to turn back time
To when this body felt like mine
And I wouldn't fear that staying here
Could break the heart of someone dear
But now it's always on my mind

You know it
You know that
Tears go stale in a hospital bed
Wear them out until you're dead

Tears stale in a hospital bed
A new start or a tragic end?
My prize
A catastrophic life
I couldn't leave behind if I tried
It's my call
I command it all
From where you rest your head
While the rain rolls off
My words like a firing squad
On every caustic thought that would've played us off

This won't be my forever