"Recesses" lyrics

Swim with me darling, dive
Below ocean you'd recognize
Plummet for decades, fall
Befriend the monsters, big and small

But I don't wanna go this time, I wanna stay home tonight, tomorrow morning can be such a dreadful sight, with sunlight comes the fright
But I guess I'll hide the tears, before we get there let me make this clear, one day I'll escape, but I'll need your help to fight the fear
Hi dad, how are you? Nothing's going on, it's going fine. School? Lie about my grades and say my work's turned in on time
Head to my room, the only place in the house where I feel sane. Where I hide behind a door so I don't always have to mask the pain
Start thinking heinous things like how I wish he'd crash and die. Then I feel bad when I see he's making burgers on the grill tonight
There's nothing easy about the way I wish it felt so right. If only he could love me like a father should then I think things could be alright
I wish that you could know me dad, the real me, please don't be mad. Why can't you just accept me like the father that I never had?
He's being nice again, maybe it's just me somehow. Anyways dad, can we go and get those donuts now?

Swim with me darling, dive
Below ocean you'd recognize
Plummet for decades, fall
Befriend the monsters, big and small

Swim with me darling, dive
Below ocean you'd recognize
Plummet for decades, fall
Befriend the monsters, big and small

I will not lie to you this song was hard for me to write. Most of my lyrics come to me like crickets in the dead of night
This one took deep thought, no part of my mind asleep. The recesses of my mind have never felt so deep

Swim with me darling, dive
Below ocean you'd recognize
Plummet for decades, fall
Befriend the monsters, big and small