"Holiday OKV" lyrics

I'm writing lyrics in my study
Thinkin' 'bout all my little buddies
I lost along the way
It's just that demon life had
(Got its claws in them)
I dream big, bomb hard, crash n' burn, took a nose dive
Man, it feels so good to be alive

If I could ever leave myself alone
From the negative zone to the positive bone
If I could ever just leave myself alone
Find my way home again

I'm writing on a paper napkin
These meds are fast acting
Channeling my haze, brain fog dissipating
Visions of guitar lines dancing in my head
(Guess I ain't dead yet)
If I could ever just, well, leave myself a...
Ever leave myself alone
Quit thinkin', more string pluckin'
If I could ever just... finish one fuckin' thing
I would be golden: sport the crown, wear the ring
Walk straight to heaven

If I could ever just leave myself alone
From the negative zone to the positive bone
("Yeah... whatever")
Walk straight to heaven