"Cosmic" lyrics

I wanted to write a song called 'Cosmic'
I wanted to get a view of the earth
I wanted to be your lonesome cowboy
I wanted to love you 'til it hurt

I wanted the right to misbehave
To satiate my crave

I put these things aside for years
'Til laughter took the place of tears
It's like I was asleep yet now I'm here, I'm here

I wanted to take your place just sometimes
To know the things you know and why you did the things you do
To say 'no' one time and believe it
Oh, I wanted so much but only needed you

Wasn't it just my choice to make
The bed in which I lay?

I put these things aside for years
'Til laughter took the place of tears
It's like I was asleep yet now I'm here, I'm here

I wanted to be able to talk without the interruption
I wanted to sing exotic words
I wanted to find a way to put an end to all of my destruction
I wanted to know what I was worth

But wasn't it just my choice to make
The bed in which I lay?

I put these things aside for years
'Til laughter took the place of tears
It's like I was asleep yet now I'm here (it's cosmic), I'm here, I'm here
(It's cosmic)