"Young Disciple" lyrics

Aly, what is incessantly on your mind?
Well when I was 5, my mama told me that one day we're all gonna die
Of all places, it was in a fast food joint at night
That left me with a bad taste in my mouth and a knack for existential spinning out
"How'd that come to pass?" You may ask, as the full moon seemed to leer and loom
Well on the stage of a church in a kiddie pool, she and my dad were born again
I was an audience member beside my little sister and I didn't understand
And they were my age then, the age that I am
So I guess I get it better now
Oh, the pangs of fear, the fear of being alone
Of dying young or growing old
Before realizing the purpose of your soul

It was with a milkshake in her hand, that my mama mentioned a second coming
That as believers, we would be lifted to a brilliant kingdom in the sky
And I couldn't fathom a place of light high above the desert night
But as an impassioned follower of my beautiful mother
I put all of my faith in her
You and I, we both swing in and out of fear for the future
We lean into the sky, we're looking for the answers
You and I, we both swing in and out of fear for the future
We lean into the sky, we're looking for the answers
I can see a romance in the reaching, and a tenderness in believing
We lean into the sky, we're looking for the answers, yeah, but
Mama, you didn't inspire a heavenly desire
Just an urge to hold my life a little tighter
Just an urge to hold my life a little tighter
Just an urge to hold my life a little tighter