"Detest" lyrics

The eyes that once held my gaze are now seeping with fear and I cannot erase my words as I turn
So she can't see my face
So disgusted and hopeless though I might be chosen to show this world some faith
The first child was alone
Mothers brains were blown
I was numb and it just felt right
Put a bullet in her head
Played a song as she bled
Then never felt the same since that night
I killed mothers and fathers
Sons and their daughters
Burned them to ash I confess
You were the first thing to change me
You kept me refraining from treating this world like my test
I can't change what I've done
Every day I have to live with this
It's just begun
You wanna feel em well then reminisce
Cause I'm one being feeling certain things for the first time
So just give me one thing
What other choice do you even have?
I need your confidence, fake, genuine
I just need you to act, cause there's a plague coming for your kind And if I'm going to combat I'll need some peace of mind
I am your last chance, I am the last chance they have
If I am to stand and survive I need the patience for me that you had
Don't look to the clouds
God doesn't hear you
He's left you with just me now