"Struggle" lyrics

I sometimes think to when I was young
To happier times, now they have gone
I'll try to remember the things that made me smile
So here is a story of how it began
How it has gone and what is the plan
I'll try to remember the things that made me smile

And do you even know
Oh, what it's like to lose a life?
A life in which you needed more time
And do you even care
What's going on inside my mind?
I feel I can't escape, what now?

Oh, I struggle remembering your face
I wake up without a smile on my face
I notice the world's turning but I'm stood still
And the voices inside of my head
Oh, they tell me that I will wind up dead
If I continue the path that I'm on
Oh, I loved you, but you didn't care
I needed you and you was not there
And the world kicked back, it forced me to my knees

And do you even care?
What's going on inside my mind
I feel I can't escape, what now?

Oh, I struggle remembering your face
I wake up without a smile on my face
I notice the world's turning but I'm stood still
And the voices inside of my head
Oh, they tell me that I will wind up dead
If I continue the path that I'm on
Oh, I loved you, but you didn't care
I needed you and you was not there
And the world kicked back, it forced me to my knees

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

Now I'm older and the years have been kind
I understand but I'm far from wise
I was just a boy but I just could not cry (Oh, oh, oh)
Not because I, I didn't care
I understand that life's not fair
It's not your fault, I will carry on (Oh, oh, oh)

But I struggle remembering your face
I look back on what we have made
I still remember the things that made me smile
You made me smile