"(Redacted)" lyrics

(I don't know, I've never written a song where somebody's name was the title or was part of the lyrics, so I'll probably just change the lyrics to be hummed where their name is, and call it something stupid and self-aware like "")

I don't wanna try to love you
For the sake of my own self-discovery
I am well aware
That would be cruel
I don't wanna take advantage
Of the feelings you have for me
Especially not when I don't know what it is I feel for you

I mean, I know that I love being your friend
So much so it makes me question if I
Might want a little bit more
But I won't turn you into an experiment
Just so I can be completely sure

So
I'm so sorry but I think I should go
It just wouldn't be fair to you, you know
Do I like you, or do I just hate
Being alone?

I don't wanna give you false hope
Or entertain something that's never gonna come true
I would never try to lead you on
But I don't wanna figure out who I am
Through figuring out if I like you
So I think it might be best if we just stopped

But I really love being your friend
And it's selfish, but at the end of this
I hope that you'll still let me be
Because even if you were a willing participant
If I experimented, I never want your heartache
To be because of me

So
I'm so sorry but I think I need to go
It isn't fair to you that I don't know
If I like you or if I just hate
Being alone

I'm not leaving cause I don't care
I have to go because the idea of being in love with you makes me so scared
And I don't know who I am anymore
But I know that I never even questioned it before I met
You

So
I'm so sorry that I have to go
You'd be a casualty of my curiosity, so
I think it's best if we never know
If I like you or if I just hate
Being alone

And yet I'm alone