"Event" lyrics

The thoughts that circle my head are far from innocent
And the worst part of it is you
Can't change me
Can't save me
This world will swallow me whole
Ever since that night I'm afraid to fucking feel alone

The wounds turn into scars as I am ripped apart
Sensations lost as I'm thrown right back to the start

For fucking years I've escaped this
Feeling hurt feeling trapped inside of this disconnect
The steering hand of your demons
Made it's way to your heart to make you cold as shit

I can't breathe
Put me out of my misery
I can't sleep
Please take this pain away from me

My own existence makes me sick

Do you know what it feels like
To feel nothing at all it leaves you dead inside
I know I missed my introduction
But what the fuck do you want from me
It all happens in a second
This trauma hurts more than it looks
Please do not pray for me
The repetition of sorrow has broken me

Where the hell do I even begin
The days just start to bleed together
I'm starting to lose track of myself and feel as if I'm a enemy

I'm losing sleep at night knowing I'm the one who made it through this
I never knew I could live with so much weight on my chest
The darkness is rising, I feel it deep inside
I'm going insane living in this constant state of agony

Agony

The wounds turn into scars as I am ripped apart
Sensations lost as I'm thrown right back to the start
I'd be forced to feel alone If I could feel at all
Tear me apart, feast on my skin my backs against the wall

What am I supposed to do?
Now that I'm all alone