"Reluctantly Dead" lyrics

The blood on my hands is like drugs on my nose
I've been confused with someone who's in control
Of all the things that will happen anyway
So I'll just continue on the path that I hate
'Cause I'm gonna find my way

I've been grabbing at sand just to watch it slip away
I put both my hands up and I started to pray
That you ain't like me and that you'll let me walk away
But I'll understand it if you choose to kill me

Would've probably done the same
I would've probably done the same

You believe that they came here to protect you
But see I would rather run
'Cause now the law results in a death

Once you understand that you've got control
See I'd be confused for someone you'll never know
'Cause all of those things were gonna happen anyway
Somewhere within you lies the one that you hate

I'm gonna fuck myself today
I'd rather fuck myself today

You believe that they came here to protect you
But see I would rather run
'Cause now the law results in a death

You believe that they came here to protect you
But see I am not the one
'Cause I will be reluctantly dead

I'll never be alone again
But do you realise you're my only friend
I feel at home again
Home again

I'll never be alone again
Yeah I feel that I'm my only friend
I feel at home again (home again)
And this is all pretend

You believe that they came here to protect you
But see I would rather run
'Cause now the law results in a death

You believe that they came here to protect you
But see I am not the one
'Cause I will be reluctantly dead