"First Light" lyrics

The infection spreads
With existential dread
And I don't know what keeps me breathing
'Cause if I'm honest
Death seems appealing
My will to see tomorrow withers
'Cause I'm thinking of pills
Or maybe even a blade
That can end this haunting sickness
But You whisper in my ear

Wait for the first light
'Cause I know the feel of defeat
So don't close your eyes
Hold for the glow
Like a thief in the night it shatters the dark
Fight till the shadows surrender to the sun
Wait for first light

But underneath I'm so unclean
Not sure what I believe
And I'm not who I used to be
'Cause I'm losing control
Infested by a parasitic grief
Falling into deadly patterns
Show me something worth living for
'Cause the blade is crashing down

Wait for the first light
'Cause I know the feel of defeat
So don't close your eyes
Hold for the glow
Like a thief in the night it shatters the dark
Fight till the shadows surrender to the sun
Wait for first light

I'm torn to shreds
This life is a rude awakening
When you're running out
Of reasons to live
I've given up on me
On me

Resuscitate
Breathe again