"Before I Help Myself" lyrics

My tears keep falling nonstop
I gotta help myself
I know you're going through stuff
But I can't help nobody else
Before I help myself

Oh what a fucking world we're living in
Fill the emptiness with drugs yeah that sticky green
Hate to see me as [?]
When I pull up breaking bud
At the family dinner
I don't give a shit

Who's gonna judge me?
Burning up inside
Like were we ever happy?
Mmm, I'm not a [?]
End up feeling worse
Thinking that I gotta stop this
Mmm

But I feel lost and low and lonely
Without you out on the road
I step the gas the Camaro
Is roaring loud as fast it goes
And all my love can't make you happy
Girl I know I'm just your ghost
And all this hurt is seeping through my heart
I miss you so

I miss you so, I miss you so
I miss you so, I miss you so
I miss your laugh, I miss your dance
To take your hand and spin you slow

Oh what a fucking world I'm living in
Fill the emptiness with love
Keep the hurt in veils
I don't wanna face a loss of you
Nah I'd rather dance with you
Let you drag my heart till she full of mud

Who's gonna judge me?
Picking up your calls
Everytime you wanna fuck me, mmm
Who's gonna stop me?
Ravishing your heart
All tangled in your bedsheet, mmm

But I feel lost and low and lonely
Without you out on the road
I step the gas the Camaro
Is roaring loud as fast it goes
And all my love can't make you happy
Girl I know I'm just your ghost
And all this hurt is seeping through my heart
I miss you so

I miss you so, I miss you so
I miss you so, I miss you so
I miss your laugh, I miss your dance
To take your hand and spin you slow