"Shouldn't" lyrics
Back when you knew me I would never say this
You could see through me, you could see I hate it
Everything I wasn't, everything I would be
Now I'm in my head and I'm feelin' like I can't breathe
And I never can sleep, always been a problem
I'm not gonna make it, I won't see autumn
I have these dreams and I don't know how to stop them
I'm startin' to feel like I'm not what you wanted
'Cause these days when we talk so cautious
I hurt you, and it makes me nauseous
Back when I was out of pocket
Made my bed so I bear these crosses
'Cause I left and you can't go with me
I'm sorry if you still miss me
Eyes forward the road ahead
Goes on even when I'm gone to history
'Cause I don't think it's right
(Waiting on living)
I won't even try
(To explain how I'm feeling)
Nothing's changed but everything has
We used to love life, it's really too bad
But I don't even mind
(The feelin' of sinking down)
I was in a trap house, singing with the users
I don't even care to, I'm just so confused on
I'm not where I should be, I can never face up
Never gonna go home, never gonna wake up
I'm always stressed and you're always gettin' left on read
I've been trying to get better, but I never convalesce
I can feel it in my chest, now it's comin' to a head
I've been runnin' out of time, I've been never perfect
Never gonna be what you need, why won't you give up on me?
You keep thinking that I'll change, this world is not a home for me
Did you think honestly you could know what's best for me?
I stay away to keep you safe, I have to quarantine
'Cause I don't think it's right
(Waiting on living)
I won't even try
(To explain how I'm feeling)
Nothing's changed but everything has
We used to love life, it's really too bad
But I don't even mind
(The feelin' of sinking down)
You could see through me, you could see I hate it
Everything I wasn't, everything I would be
Now I'm in my head and I'm feelin' like I can't breathe
And I never can sleep, always been a problem
I'm not gonna make it, I won't see autumn
I have these dreams and I don't know how to stop them
I'm startin' to feel like I'm not what you wanted
'Cause these days when we talk so cautious
I hurt you, and it makes me nauseous
Back when I was out of pocket
Made my bed so I bear these crosses
'Cause I left and you can't go with me
I'm sorry if you still miss me
Eyes forward the road ahead
Goes on even when I'm gone to history
'Cause I don't think it's right
(Waiting on living)
I won't even try
(To explain how I'm feeling)
Nothing's changed but everything has
We used to love life, it's really too bad
But I don't even mind
(The feelin' of sinking down)
I was in a trap house, singing with the users
I don't even care to, I'm just so confused on
I'm not where I should be, I can never face up
Never gonna go home, never gonna wake up
I'm always stressed and you're always gettin' left on read
I've been trying to get better, but I never convalesce
I can feel it in my chest, now it's comin' to a head
I've been runnin' out of time, I've been never perfect
Never gonna be what you need, why won't you give up on me?
You keep thinking that I'll change, this world is not a home for me
Did you think honestly you could know what's best for me?
I stay away to keep you safe, I have to quarantine
'Cause I don't think it's right
(Waiting on living)
I won't even try
(To explain how I'm feeling)
Nothing's changed but everything has
We used to love life, it's really too bad
But I don't even mind
(The feelin' of sinking down)
