"Lonely" lyrics

I was lonely making an album, attempted it four times
Lost my confidence and you wouldn't believe why
Sitting in the studio with my head in my hands
Thinking what am I to do with this music I can't write?
Team falling apart and I'm caught in the crossfire
You selling me lies and saying I must buy
Messing with my mental that I've worked hard to protect
It's causing pains in my chest, so it's best that I cut ties
Tryna make an album means baring my whole truth
Unpacking the fuckery I'm trying to heal through
Imagine telling it all to somebody you trust
Then that same somebody then holds it against you
Mm
It's almost like that somebody's trying to end you
I was lonely making an album till I released I'm all I needed to get through

So lonely
A race against time
But take it slowly
Playing on my weakness
And that's unholy
I'll pray for you
God is who we both need

I was lonely making an album, I ran into mad blocks
Tryna find that girl everybody's a fan of
Couldn't even say what I thought was good anymore
Whether I'm hands on or hands off
Maybe music just isn't meant for me anymore
Maybe I'll erase all these memories from my core
Maybe I'll do more acting and less rapping
'Cos I don't even know who I'm meant to be anymore
Lonely making an album is tackling all doubt
I'm used to making it with—, can I do it without?
No figure of speech, I get it by any means
No sucker is in my genes, yet still having more doubts
On top of that, I'm dealing with somebody who's obsessed with more clout
I was lonely making an album till I realised my story's all I can pour out

So lonely
A race against time
But take it slowly
Playing on my weakness
And that's unholy
I'll pray for you
God is who we both need

I'm spinning, up away
I'm spinning, up away
I'm spinning, up away
Up away, up away
I'm spinning, up away
I'm spinning, up away
I'm spinning, up away
Up away, up away

I'm spinning, up away
I'm spinning, up away
I'm spinning, up away
Up away, up away
I'm spinning, up away
I'm spinning, up away
I'm spinning, up away
Up away, up away
I'm spinning, up away
I'm spinning, up away