"Holding On" lyrics

Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you

Scared of being honest with myself
Tired of always blaming someone else
And I've been smoking like I don't care about my health
Because either way life ain't fair, so fuck it might as well

Lately, I've been looking back instead of forward
Getting lost inside of photo
We were laughing in the rover
Now I can't help but look around to find a reason
Overdose on dopamine
Waiting for that double-meaning
Lately, I've been

Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you

La nuit dernière j'ai rêvé d'elle
On était à la plage le coucher de soleil

I left my heart in a place that I can't go back to
I dyed my hair rose pink to feel like I have you
I don't wanna know what it means to let go, but I do
I left my heart in a place that I can't go back to

Lately, I've been catching Z's and counting zeros
Hard to be in the mirror
Try my best to see it clear, but I can't help it
Getting lost in memories
I'm overdosing reveries
I feel better when I'm dreaming
Lately, I've been

Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you

I try, but not enough
Can't keep my guard up
Unravel, spiral, I come undone
But if I close my eyes, I'm holding onto you you you

Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you