"Carelessly" lyrics

I am only as good as my ideas
I am holding you back from your tears
I am hoping you'll be here for years
I am hoping you'll hold me for years

Self care is a waste on me
Though it's not that I live carelessly

All that I've ever wanted
Falls short to crawl in this boy's apartment
On the regular, I've lied
By the reservoir, I've cried
For that night

I am only as good as my ideas
I am holding you back from your tears
I am hoping you'll be here for years
I am hoping you'll hold me for years

All I wanna do is
Live alone without losing touch with
Something regular in my life
By the reservoir, I cried
For a better time, late nights
Restless, dressed, but I'm alright
I know I'm alive
I think self doubt will be the death of me

Could I be alone?

For the record, I'm nervous but I'm not afraid
For the record, I loved it through all misery
For the record, I never thought I wouldn't change
For the record, I loved you and all that you gave me

My life could be simple

Follow me back to my room

Carelessly I am
Wide awake thinking about all I have
I don't want you to think
That I don't wonder
Could I be alone?
Should I be alone?