"sorry i'm a downer" lyrics

I'm sorry I'm a downer
I'm a mess now, it's true
Searching for a feeling
When these feelings can kill you

I'm just talking to my problems
It's way past trying to solve them
I could lead a double life
One that's happy, one that's mine

Life's a big ol' fuckin' pattern
And I'm sick of getting sadder, yeah
When the past cuts just like a knife
Heartbeat repeating every faster
Tired, but doesn't even matter?
When everyday's the same, that's life

Catch me falling through my youth
I know it's nothing new

I'm sorry I'm a downer
I'm a mess now, it's true
Searching for a feeling
When these feelings can kill you
I'm sorry I'm a downer
I'm a mess now, it's true
Searching for a feeling
When these feelings can kill you

I think that maybe this is manic
Should I panic again?
Life loves keeping me a hostage
And neither one of us wins
Living a lie
It's perfectly designed
I tried to let you know
You gotta let me go

I know this is nothing new

I'm sorry I'm a downer
I'm a mess now, it's true
Searching for a feeling
When these feelings can kill you
I'm sorry I'm a downer
I'm a mess now, it's true
Searching for a feeling
When these feelings can kill you