"Used To Be" lyrics

Weeks in New York years at a time
Hoping one can change my life
Rolling the dice fingers intertwined
Want my advice but good luck this could take a while

It ain't, how it all used to be
Can you, tell me what's been happening

Speaking my thoughts
Deep in the crowd it's freaking me out
They if life is like a party then their speakers too loud
In my head getting overwhelmed with reason and doubt
It's like I think 'bout something long enough and get whittled down
Not Dorothy, every road ain't yellow brick for me
And I can only make it home if I can tap your shoes
Thoughts getting scarier nothing gon' prepare you for
Finding out that everyone has a struggle too
Ooh ain't seen the man who raised me years, still miss him
Kept away by my solemn mission, my hallowed vision
My souls balancing out my optimism
And I almost made it far enough, now I have to get it

Led by a string and held by a rope
Labels saw me sing then caged up a goat
Finally breaking free, almost lost all hope
One day we'll see everything that glitters is golden
All my friends are like legends untold, I
Count the seconds 'til everyone knows, I
Filled my circles with achievers, hustlers, and tired souls
It's harder flying and falling and getting up and
We're all in the same boat
Swapping the same roles
Hit with the same waves
Half of us going over
You could quit while you're ahead
Not get to quit when you get told to
And I rather create 'til I'm too old to
Tall mountain to climb, problems to scale
Miss my Momma told her I'd be back in a couple of years
And man I probably should've been abundantly clear
To make any dream happen is blood sweat and tears

It ain't how it all used to be
Can you tell me what's been happening