"CUMULUS NIMBUS" lyrics

Virtue's out of town until the weekend
My kindness took a business trip to Maine
The only one that's home is awkward feelings
So I'ma throw a party for the pain

When I'm up, I'm fucking up, cumulus nimbus
When I'm down, I'm fucking down, I'm subterrain
You took my hand and told me life is for the living
Just take a stand and learn to dance inside the rain
Dance inside the rain

Blue waters, blue waters
These blue waters
But they can't blame me, they all do the same thing

My happiness has had another baby (Goodbye my love)
Packed its bags, and it's traveling the globe (Hope your trip goes well)
But my sense of self is looking at me crazy (Who you lookin' at?)
Saying "do you really plan to let him go?" (And when will you come back?)
Now I'm the [?]
Why I always gotta be the one to hold you down in stormy weather
Like to think you know me better
See I done told you from the dot that I ain't perfect
I'm drowning in the deep, so I'm just surfin' on the surface
And you can call it hurtin', but I know that it's more complicated
Would you ever tell me if you if you got too tired of waiting patiently
I get it now, you probably just don't know what you would say to me
Lately, I been hatin' me, you just don't feel safe with me, do you?
I go through changes like voodoo
You see the storm in my head, I see the pain comin' through you
When I'm alone in the bed, think to myself "what would you do?"
But I know how this ends, and I ain't trying to lose you
I just close my eyes and I go, somewhere where I can be alone, I-

'Cause when I'm up, I'm fucking up, cumulus nimbus
When I'm down, I'm fucking down, I'm subterrain
You took my hand and told me life is for the living
Just take a stand and learn to dance inside the rain
So dance inside the rain

Blue waters (Maybe you just got problems)
(Maybe you just got problems, problems)
Blue waters (Maybe you just got problems)
(Maybe you just got problems, problems)
These blue waters
But they can't blame me, they all do the same thing