"summer's gone" lyrics

Leave me out to dry and rot
Obviously I cry a lot
Want me to be what I am not
Stuck in my head, I try a lot

I can't quiet my thoughts
Don't let them out this Pandora's Box
I ruined my wedding, now I wish I had a rope so I could still tie the knot
Leave my body cold as the north
Hangin' from the ceiling fan, spinnin' in circles
Die young, leave a beautiful corpse
I know that it's selfish, but it ain't to hurt you
I needed some peace from the war in my head I've been fighting for twenty years
Way too much PTSD to smile about anything, even if I had veneers
Only therapy that's workin' is when I'm on this microphone with my engineer
These songs are the only way that I can communicate with you when I'm no longer here
And fear of loneliness is solely responsible for why I ran everyone away
Searchin' for paradise when I was already in it is why it got took away
All that I ask is if I make it to Heaven from this life, I don't have to press "Replay"
All I'm askin' you after a life of sinning if it's ever too late to pray?

Leave me out to dry and rot
Obviously I cry a lot
Want me to be what I am not
Stuck in my head, I try a lot