"mourning" lyrics

How bad does it look if I ask you again?
I know you're getting tired of the same questioning
I wanna make you happy
I don't wanna start a fight
Could you say that you love me please?
Just one more time

Ooh, I tried to be cool
Why are you so cruel?
I'm mourning someone who is not gone
Ooh, I'm grabbing at straws
I feel you drift off
I'm mourning someone in the next room

My friends are being way too nice
I think that they know something's wrong
My body's in a fight or flight
I'm staying where I don't belong

Re-reading conversations, reciting lines
Is it really that hard to treat me right?
I feel you when you hold me, but not too tight
The kind of space that keeps you up at night
Checking on my phone under the table, hold my breath
When I see your name, it always feels like it might be my last

Ooh, I tried to be cool
Why are you so cruel?
I'm mourning someone who is not gone
Ooh, I'm grabbing at straws
I feel you drift off
I'm mourning someone in the next room

I fought myself to make it us
Bury the truth that left me crushed
I know the secrets that you keep
It makes it hard to sleep
Believe the lies you tell instead
I fought my heart against my head
I know the company you keep
Guilt makes it hard to sleep

Ooh, I tried to be cool
Why are you so cruel?
I'm mourning someone who is not gone
Ooh, I'm grabbing at straws
I feel you drift off
I'm mourning someone in the next room

My friends are being way too nice
I think that they know something's wrong
My body's in a fight or flight
I'm staying where I don't belong