"Not Ready To Die" lyrics

All those years took for granted just feeling fine
Never once did I think that I'd need more time
I always thought I was bullet-proof
Couldn't break me if they wanted to, I
Was deceived by the man in my children's eyes

I was hiding my weakness for all those years
I was told be a man, never show your tears
Never thought I would fall apart
Was just relying on a beating heart, now
I'm feeling close to the end of this life
And my deepest fear is that

I'm not ready to die
I'm not ready to die
And if I'm being honest with myself
I haven't done enough, I know I'm
Not ready to die
I'm not ready, no

In this hospital bed I might lose my mind, oh
I'm thinking about all the people I'll leave behind, oh
My two daughters and my only son
I'm the person they're relying on, yeah
But I'm reminding myself that this life here was never mine, no I'm

Not ready to die
I'm not ready to die
And if I'm being honest with myself
I haven't done enough, I know I'm
Not ready to die
I'm not ready, no

Oh

We've all gotten that call
The diagnosis... the accident
The moment everything falls quiet
I looked at myself in the mirror and I realised
Alhamdu lillah, I'm not done yet
And in that silent moment
No noise, no distractions
Just some questions
Did I love enough?
Did I cry enough?
Did I hug enough?
Did I smile enough?
Did I allow myself to be forgiven and forgive others?
Because that call doesn't lie
It's a wake-up call
It's a second chance I don't want to miss
I said to myself:
If I'm still breathing then I still have time
If my heart is still beating
Then there's still something left to give
And maybe, not being ready to die just means...
I'm finally ready to live

Oh, I'm not ready to die, no
I'm not ready to die
If I'm being honest with myself
I haven't done enough, I know I'm
Not ready to die
I'm not ready, no
I'm not ready, no

I'm not ready to die
But will I ever be ready?