"Lump" lyrics

There's a lump in my throat
And I'm tryna push it down
Will I feel any better once its gone?
Don't want to feel what I've become
So I'll sit here getting numb
There's a lump that won't go, that won't go
There's a lump in my throat

I'm hitting my all time low
But I'm better off thinking that
I can dig myself out of this hole
But I don't know

This doesn't feel like there's somewhere to go
This doesn't feel like before on high sensory overload, load, load

Just because my mind says
We're breaking down slow
Doesn't mean I'm bailing out
So steady as she goes

There's a lump in my throat
And I'm tryna push it down
Puff a smoke, two benzos
Try to ride it, ride it out
Don't want to feel what I've become
So I'll sit here getting numb
There's a lump that won't go, that won't go
There's a lump in my throat

Time has never been on my side
Been caught tryna figure out
Why I'm a little less Jekyll than Hyde
And I get tired

This doesn't feel like there's somewhere to go
This doesn't feel like before on high sensory overload, load, load

Just because my mind says
We're breaking down slow
Doesn't mean I'm bailing out
So steady as she goes

There's a lump in my throat
And I'm tryna push it down
Puff a smoke, two benzos
Try to ride it, ride it out
Don't want to feel what I've become
So I'll sit here getting numb
There's a lump that won't go, that won't go
There's a lump in my throat

My mind says we're breaking down slow
Baby I ain't bailing out, so steady as she goes
My mind says we're breaking down slow
Baby I ain't bailing out, so steady as she goes

There's a lump in my throat
And I'm tryna push it down
Puff a smoke, two benzos
Try to ride it, ride it out
Don't want to feel what I've become
So I'll sit here getting numb
There's a lump that won't go, that won't go
There's a lump in my throat