"How" lyrics

I had wondered what was done to you
To give you such a taste for flesh
I guess for years I just carried on
Didn't feel much of a choice to suppress

I hope your memory is less vivid than mine
And is free from that awful maple light
I have to say I still wish you had just done it in the dark
So the pictures didn't burn so bright

But I'll forgive you now
Release you from all of the blame I know how
And I'll forgive you now
As if saying the words will help me know how
Please help me know how

I'm afraid it will take a time
I make my case to the Shahanshah as I bring him his cup
And I'll tell him best I can what I need
To build the walls of my Jerusalem back up

And I have reckoned with what you've taken from me
And I killed that liar in my head
I buried him beneath the maple tree
There's no joy in dancing with the dead

But I'll forgive you now
Release you from all of the blame I know how
And I'll forgive you know
As if saying the words will help me know how
How, how