"What If I Make It" lyrics

I have no bigger enemy than me
I know it's so much worse than what you see
It's all-consuming
There's nothing you can say about my looks
That I've not said
Girl, I wrote the book
Each page while bleeding

The truths I tell myself are almost soothing
They offer an excuse to stay in line
I pad myself with reasons I don't do things
My biggest fear is
What if they're all lies?

But what if I make it?
What if I make it?
What if I make it?
What if I make it alone?

My career is a fluke
I'm a mistake
I don't know what I'm doing
I'm a fake
I can't write music

The truths I tell myself are almost soothing
They offer an excuse to stay in line
I pad myself with reasons I don't do things
My biggest fear is
What if they're all lies?

But what if I make it?
What if I make it?
What if I make it?
What if I make it alone?

Last thing, love
I don't think that's for me
I don't come from a healthy family
You should keep moving

But what if we make it?
What if we make it?
What if we make it?
What if we make it my love?
What if we make it?
What if we make it?
What if we make it?
What if we make it my love?