"Cursive" lyrics

I don't like the world quite the way that it is
So I keep talking about all the things you won't fix
I'm impatient, a rock in the mud
Truth is change isn't change 'til the changing is done

I don't wanna make you mad
I don't wanna make you mean
I don't wanna pull you down
I don't wanna cause a scene
I just wanna know right now
Is it all a big machine
Are we in a crowded hell
Is heaven all a brilliant scheme

All those questions have answers that no one can find
Always gate-keeping gospels until the right time
So I sit in your silence, my senses all stoned
Is your truth really truth once the damage is done

I don't wanna make you mad
I don't wanna make you mean
I don't wanna pull you down
I don't wanna cause a scene
I just wanna know right now
Is it all a big machine
Are we in a crowded hell
Is heaven all a brilliant scheme

It's not the world I thought I knew at 17 or 22
I spilt my beer, I lost my purpose
Cleaning up was never worth it
Part the seas and call a truce
It's hurting me, I'm hurting you
Looking down, you talk in cursive
You know me, I never learned it