"The Spider And The Root Canal" lyrics

This is the first
And fucking last time
That I will cover for you
My sunshine
She catches drops
Of all the water
That's on her window
Just like a spider

And yeah my heart
Is fucking empty
So many holes here
It rips right through me
And time stands still
When we're together
Both you and I
Stuck here forever

Breakneck speeds
With breakneck choices
You and I
Could follow through
Dig myself
Into a hole that's
Deeper than
Your root canal
Saw your face
Like God came back and
Heals my heart
[?]
We can be
Like fallen angels
Rise up through
This killer pain

Dear diary, I've been struggling with self harm again and it makes me feel lonely
It's an odd feeling to live in a body you hate, and to wake up every day with [?]
But I'm trying to do better
To treat the people around me with respect and love
Even though I don't respect and love myself
To not be so angry all the time and [?] to help people
I think about when I was a kid a lot, and all the things I did wrong
And how those things shaped me and my future
And that's a pretty cool thing, but I still feel sad a lot

Breakneck speeds
With breakneck choices
You and I
Could follow through
Dig myself
Into a hole that's
Deeper than
Your root canal
Saw your face
Like God came back and
Heals my heart
[?]
We can be
Like fallen angels
Rise up through
This killer pain