"fat broke loser" lyrics

I find that all my charm wears off after a couple drinks
And anyone with their antennas up can see that I'm high
A fat, broke loser with dishonest thoughts of being somebody
A sad dude, looking for a ticket to ride
I wonder why my nephew scared me so much, and then I figured it out
I hate myself so much, why would I make a new me?
Maybe he'll be better, and upgrade, a standout?
A college essay who overcomes his upbringing

I used to talk to Jesus, now I'm drunk and talking to myself
Used to think I was someone, now see that I'm someone else
Used to try to act like Jesus, sent down here as God's own son
Thought that everybody needed me, now I see I'm the only one
The only one

Maybe I loved you or maybe just got used to you being here
Either way, by the end, you know we drifted apart
I wonder what kind of plans God has for you basic bitches
People spend their whole life trying to fall in love
Me, I spend more time scheming ways to put an end to myself
Or at least pull a blanket over all of this noise
But I ain't gonna give the ghost up 'til my name's in your mouth
Not because you love me, because you can't escape my voice

Well, I used to talk to Jesus, now I'm drunk and talking to myself
Used to think I was someone, now see that I'm someone else
Used to think I was Jesus, sent down here as God's own son
Thought that everybody loved me, now I see I'm the only one
The only one
The only one

And Maybe I'll get better some day
When I get all of this shit out of my head
Maybe I'll get famous
Take a bunch of pills and wind up dead
Who knows?
Who knows?
I know, oh, I know
I'm the only one
The only one
The only one