"WASTE OF CONFETTI" lyrics

Just wanna be alone today
Do whatever the fuck I feel like
Spend time in my sacred place
Kick back and take a load off

I'm depressed and I need a break
From this character I'm playing
I've been a slave in the collective maze
And I just can't fake it anymore

Why do I pretend
When my heart is pulling at me?
Why do I say yes?
I try to make everyone happy

Here I go
I'm people pleasing again
Why do I abandon my own party?
A waste of confetti

Lab rat in a black mirror
Feeling pressure for a paycheck
Broke orbit to avoid the fear
Crash landed in my brain cells

Why do I pretend?
When my heart is pulling at me?
Why do I say yes?
I try to make everyone happy

Here I go
I'm people pleasing again
Why do I abandon my own party?
A waste of confetti

Is this where it all dissolves?
Is this where it all dissolves?
Dark places, illuminating
Is this where it all dissolves?
My heart is levitating
Is this where it all...

Why do I pretend?
When my heart is pulling at me?
It doesn't make sense
I try to make the whole world happy

Here I go
I'm people pleasing again
Why do I abandon my own party?
A waste of confetti