"Dopamine Lottery" lyrics

I didn't win the dopamine lottery
My hair's a nest I haven't done my laund-ery
I been through all five stages of grief before I even brush my teeth
Oh no, I keep self medicating with debauchery
I know my eyes are looking red and kinda watery
But trust me what you see is prettier than what is underneath

The odds have never been in my favor
My mind's a traitor
My mind's got a mind of its own
My mind's got a mind of its own
And my psyche won't leave me alone

Cuz I didn't win the dopamine lottery
And the apple didn't fall too far from the family tree
This generational trauma is quietly killing us
Let's get this weight off our chest
And say what needs to be said

I need more dopamine
In my bloodstream
Whoa...
I need more dopamine
In my bloodstream
Whoa...

The odds have never been in my favor
My mind's a traitor
My mind's got a mind of its own
My mind's got a mind of its own
It's all just beyond my control
All the highs and the lows
No, I can't keep my focus
It's bordering psychosis
I'm furiously scratching
And hoping and hoping and hoping

But I never win the dopamine lottery
I think someone up there owes me an apology