"Anxiety" lyrics

Man, I been dealin' with anxiety
This shit just happens to get the best of me
It started out as just a couple of doubts
But now it's runnin' me out of my entirety
Ain't been feelin' good when I been wakin' up
Feelin' so deflated, just get up, the fuck?
Never really knew about anxiety
Until I let it go and get the best of me, oh

Breathin' in, breathin' faster, no breathin' out
Heart stops, mind blowin', gettin' creepy now
I don't know myself, don't know if I'm capable, am I well?
Don't know if I'm good enough, too wrong?
Don't know if I'm good till I'm gone
I been dealin' with anxiety
Yeah

I'm lookin' back, no, not depressed, not anymore
I did my work, I did good, I made sure
I went to therapy, tryna forgive the best of me
Nip it in the bud before I bring out the worst in me
Found myself rehabilitatin' from amphetamines
Sometimes, I wish it was someone else instead of me
Sometimes, I wish to start again, please wipe my memory
Such a broken little child, was God upset at me?

Now I'm on top, can't breathe, no, can't move
Body shakin', not good, no, not cool
Now I'm down and I'm out and I'm fightin' loud
Arguin' about the shit that we don't know about
You think I'm wrong and I'm cool with it
I knew all along I was through with it
Dealin' with this anxiety

I told my father, "Don't you ever hit me up no more"
I told my mama, "I'm better headin' out of the door"
He tried to crush my soul, tried to come and torture us
But now I'm writin' songs, vibin' on a tour bus
Narcissistic, so selfish, can't believe I let you get to me
You was supposed to try protect, not try come and wreck me
Now you broke, cannot flex, evil vibes get your life
Now I'm rollin' around with no more tears up in my eyes

Never thought I'd feel free from these burdens inside
Baby, let me give you something for the ride
Yeah, control your breathin'
Breathe in then breathe out
Take it easy, take a breath
Then calm down, it gets better
As long as you take it there
If it doesn't work keep it Aaliyah and go and try again
I thought I was done out but I grew with it
We all go through it, we're all a part of it

Dealin' with this anxiety
Dealin' with this anxiety
Dealin' with this anxiety