"To Me" lyrics

When a thought, like a truck, came crashing down the gate
I held my hands up and I said, "Wait"
And I turned my head and caught the full light
Of the headlights, moonbeams, high beams bright

Am I stopped, or can I run? Can I stand, can I fight?
Am I lost? Have I won? Will I sleep well tonight?
And I reach down deep in the dirt of me
And I fling up the muck and I sweat-soak the sheets

I am not the person you thought that you would hear
When you turned on the radio and I caught your ear
I can be mean, I can be bold, I am a woman growing old
And all the losses punch a gut when the storm winds blow

Why can't you be nice to me?
I love you endlessly

Everybody has regrets, everybody gets upset
Everybody is a mess, everybody isn't yet
The person that they thought they'd be
Am I disappointing me?

Why can't you be nice to me?
I love you endlessly