"Rails" lyrics

Lying awake in bed with this spot on my chest
And it grows bigger and bigger
The whole night with this sorrow in me
I can't breathe, I can't breathe
I can't breathe

Deeper and deeper, deeper and deeper
Goes the hole inside of me
Over and over, over and over again
I feel pain
Bottle after bottle, but this pain won't end
Walking paralyzed, reason's out of sight
There's a hole in my chest and it rings me to death
But I still try to find my way back home
Counting hours
Counting days

Will this be my last night
Will this be the last time
Where the whole world is crashing down on me?
Will this be my last try
Will this be the last time
Where I'll try to get my faith back in me?
You can't help me here
I have to do this on my own
But please just dry my tears
Don't let me feel alone

So I close my eyes
A thousand times I've watched myself
Losing my mind
I've tried to feel again
But have you ever seen a flower
Try to bloom in acid rain?
There's a pressure in my head
But I hope one day I'll get out of this hell
And with every gulp I take
My problems fade
And with every fucking glass
The pain will pass

Will this be my last night
Will this be the last time
Where the whole world is crashing down on me?
Will this be my last try
Will this be the last time
Where I'll try to get my faith back in me?
You can't help me here
I have to do this on my own
But please just dry my tears
Don't let me feel alone

Lying awake in bed with this spot on my chest
And it grows bigger and bigger
The whole night with this sorrow in me
I can't breathe, I can't breathe
I can't breathe