"Suffocating" lyrics

I've been finding my voice and listening to
Every word of bad advice I tell myself
I've been losing my way, for years I let you down
But you still believe in me, and I don't know why

Damage done, I'm like a loaded gun
Ready to backfire or touch the sun
Wanting to give in and make it right
But I can't even fail, 'cause I'm afraid to fight

If I could see in me what you see
Maybe I'd be better, stronger, faster
I could have it all
If only you could see in me what I see
Maybe you could understand the reasons
That I've been hesitating I'm suffocating

I've been losing control of everything in me
Wish my mind would let me be and set me free
I've been finding something I never knew I lost
My grip on reality, can't you see?

Damage done, I'm like a loaded gun
Ready to backfire or touch the sun
Ready to give in and risk it all
But I can't even jump, 'cause I'm afraid to fall

If I could see in me what you see
Maybe I'd be better, stronger, faster
I could have it all
If only you could see in me what I see
Maybe you could understand the reasons
That I've been hesitating I'm suffocating

I'm still finding my voice
I'm still finding my voice

Damage done, I'm like a loaded gun
Ready to backfire or touch the sun
Ready to give in and risk it all
But I can't even jump, 'cause I'm afraid to fall

If only I could see in me what you see
I'd be better, stronger, faster
I could have it all
If only you could see in me what I see
Then you'd understand the reasons
That I've been hesitating I'm suffocating

If you could see in me what I see
Maybe you could understand the reason
I've been hesitating I'm suffocating