"Going To Die" lyrics

Through infinite dimensions
From far beyond the weeping cosmos
I have traveled
An endless, indeterminate quest
For but one simple truth...

I cannot take this God damn lie anymore
And I am ready to die (it's the top of the morning)

I'm trying to live
A better life
I'm trying to live (I'm trying to)
Just when I think life ain't so bad
I'm going to die (I'm going to)
Die

Woke up this morning
Wanted to die
Just like every other day
So I took some poison I got from some guy
Whom I found on craigslist
Then I emailed my family to say I was dead
And that I never loved them
There's only one small problem
I'm still alive

I'm trying to live
A better life
I'm trying to live (I'm trying to)
Just when I think life ain't so bad
I'm going to die (I'm going to)

Woke up this morning
But I'm still alive (fuck)
Much to my chagrin
187 missed calls
From my friends and family
Nothing left to drag me on
And there's no chance I'm going home
Tried to live a better life
But at the end of the day...

I'm going to die

Never had a meaning but I had a shackle haven't got a clue
Give 'em all a topic and a sense of validation and then everything I wanted'll be true
Everything I saw- finally a truth
Ripper on the run- all I want's a clue
Running out of mysteries to solve
And never knowing what to do
I'm craving meaning and I'm poor
Fuck this world, and everybody in it
Fuck this life
Hey now we're never gonna save the world
No, we're never gonna save you
Motherfuckin' ego-jackin' whores
One time; one life- more than I ever bargained for
It's all just a chore
Take me back to space back to home
And you can sit and wonder what you're waitin' for

Failure after failure
I never stood a chance
Can't seem to get things right
Maybe just one more attempt

I'm trying to live
A better life
I'm trying to live (I'm trying to)
Just when I think life ain't so bad
I'm going to die (I'm going to)