"Everything I Wanted" lyrics

Left myself on the island
Didn't even try to fight it
Now I wake up blue, pulling out my hair
And I pick on you, handle me with care

Left my mind in a dark place
I can't correct my mistakes
Now I wake up red, never speak a word
Staying in my head, it's what I deserve

I can't ignore all of the signs
I've had this feeling before
And I can't take back all the times
I've taken the blame when it wasn't mine
No, it wasn't mine

Need something else, need something else
Cause what I'm breathing in is toxic
I tell myself, I tell myself
That it's everything I wanted

Everything I wanted
Everything I wanted

Lost myself in the city
Trying to make myself busy
So I threw myself right into the crowd
Cause I needed help, should've asked around

I can't ignore all of the signs
I've had this feeling before
And I can't take back all the times
I've taken the blame when it wasn't mine
No, it wasn't mine

Need something else, need something else
Cause what I'm breathing in is toxic
I tell myself, I tell myself
That it's everything I wanted

Everything I wanted
Everything I wanted

I tell myself, I tell myself
I tell myself, I tell myself
I tell myself, I tell myself
That it's everything I wanted