"Madra" lyrics

Every time I smile
You say it's a been while
But last night when I was drinking
I wasn't thinking and I was fine
In fact, I felt alright
But I know you never get to see that side

And I'm just really sorry
That you even have to be around me
Cause I'm up and I'm down
I'm lost and never found
And I think you know that now

I'm numb
Then I feel everything at once
And I'm low
But then I'm having so much fun
Then I'm high
And that's when I start to cry
Then you're gone
And I can't blame anyone
No, I can't blame anyone

I know these feelings aren't real
But all these things they help my mind stand still
And even if it's only temporary
It feels nice to be a little empty

And I'm just really sorry
That you can't help me
Cause you try and you try
And I see it in your eyes
But nothing can make this fine

I'm numb
Then I feel everything at once
And I'm low
But then I'm having so much fun
Then I'm high
And that's when I start to cry
Then you're gone
And I can't blame anyone
No, I can't blame anyone

And I can't blame anyone
And I'm numb
And I'm numb
And I'm numb